It is a simple word but yet it is not easy to do. There are many events in our lives that hurts us or make us hurts others, people we loved and yet this has to come from the heart and to acknowledge it to them. I guess this needs process and a lot of compassion as well as self-acceptance that we as human can make mistakes and it is important to admit it.

Forgiveness is the economy of the heart… Forgiveness saves the expense of anger, the cost of hatred, the waste of spirits.
-Hannah More

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By the beach, beautiful sky at night, catching soft waves hit the beachside, sharing thoughts and conversation between two people who apreciate one another, and senses was spoiled by candlelight,beautiful madras meal,and lavished chocolate souffle. This togetherness means so much that i hope it stays but it will past and remain a sweet memory and shall bring soul closer.
Thank you for being my best friend and love of my life.


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Dare to dream again…..!!

Good morning.
I must say, this is another personal challenging day for me, to deal with my self !!
And yet, i found this inspirational article in my e-mail this morning and it’s just so true. And guess what, i did dream riding with Roy Rogers…Just not sure who he was but i think he’s one of those character when i was kid like a hero. Not so much like Superman but hey, who are we and what we can always be your own hero 🙂 so here you go, happy reading and dare to dream again my friend….

by Chris Widener

“Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure, than to take rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in the gray twilight that knows neither victory nor defeat.” Teddy Roosevelt
Do you remember when you were a child and no dream seemed too big? Some of us thought we would walk on the moon; some dreamed of riding with Roy Rogers; others imagined stepping to the plate in a big-league game. Every one of us, when we were young, had a common trait – we were dreamers. The world hadn’t gotten to us yet to show us that we couldn’t possibly achieve what our hearts longed for. And we were yet still years from realizing that in some cases we weren’t built for achieving our dream (I realized about my junior year of high school that I was too short and to slow to play professional basketball. The dreamer is always the last to know).

Eventually we started to let our dreams die. People began to tell us that we couldn’t do the things we wanted. It was impossible. Responsible people don’t pursue their dreams. Settle down, get a job, be dependable. Take care of business, live the mundane, be content.

Do you know what I say to that? Hooey!

It is time to dream again!

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How are we today..inside-out

There are three ways of seeing life. In one people stick fast. In another they go to excess. In the third they see correctly.
In the first way, people take pleasure in all the things of life–in possessions and happenings, in families and continuation. When a teaching is proclaimed that advises nonattachment and going beyond the dictates of the self, their heart does not leap up and they are not drawn to it. In the second way, people are afflicted by hatred of life. Just as attached to life, they nonetheless revile it and make a bad thing of it to excess.

In the third way, people see life as it is–forever being and ceasing to be. They accept it willingly but are not attached and do not despair. It is they who begin to know the unconditioned.

-Itivuttaka Sutta

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My indulgence and “cabin fever”

Yes.I think i got cabin fever, at least my boy confidence this is what i am having at the moment. And all i can think is, to indulge myself in my favourite things which again will make him laugh and say “go for it girl !”.Well at least i imagine he would say this..its just that why not?? So , remembering my indulgence lists, i can say chocolate, coffee latte, watching JamieOliver cooks and smiles cutely, and cuddling with me boy ( this is the best ) and one of my favourites !! Smoked salmon toast . Everyone has a comfort food right ? well not everyone treats food for comfort, it can be smoking, drinking till you piss, swearing, laughing, dancing, surfing even! Mine is this.Food is my passion! And other things i will mention later on. Yes. How can we make tasty one?You need to have a fresh brown bread, and you get smoked salmon marinated with lemon juice and crushed peppercorn. And you toast the bread lightly, put them on your plate, spread some nice buttery avocado that you scoop directly from the fresh opened avocado, and put the marinated salmon. Later, on top of salmon, you put rockets salad, sun dried tomatoes as much as you like make sure you don’t overdo it because they can dominate the taste of salmon, and then you sprinkle crushed feta cheese. On top, you spread some dressings of your favourite. Bon Apetite !!


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World in peace…can we go there?

A journal i received today from Herald Tribune. A world of peace is all about politics and human’s greediness. I never being asked to be born as whatever religion and i believe what i ve learn in my religion is all about peace, forgiveness and respect of others. Too bad, some or even most of us, use that as their own intention. Be compassion my friend. Be emphatic, and be tolerate.


Why …Why Not

Life’s two most important questions are “Why?” and “Why not?” The trick knows which one to ask. I am reading this book written by Gordon Livingston called Too Soon Old Too Late Smart and in one of this point is about the why and why not. If people are reluctant to answer “Why?” questions in their lives, they also tend to have trouble with “Why not?” The latter implies risk. Steeped in habit and fearful of change, most of us are to same degree risk-averse. Particularly in activities that may involve rejection, we tend to act as if our sense of ourselves is fragile and must be protected. One would think that these fears would improve with age and experience, the opposite is usually the case. One of most common and important pursuits, the effort to find a partner. So back to you, why and why not?

Published in: on July 31, 2006 at 5:04 am  Leave a Comment  

My Good Cause

picbox2.jpgIni loh beberapa foto selama aku bekerja dengan SurfAid.Udah 5 tahun dan masih ingin berkarya dan menyumbangkan pikiran,tenaga, rasa belas kasih kepada mereka yang membutuhkan di daerah terpencil kepulauan Mentawai. Ini hanya segelintir foto dari beberapa kegiatan lapangan yang telah aku jalani dan InsyaAllah akan terus aku jalani sampai aku muak dan tidak mampu lagi. Aku senang berada disana dan mengarungi ombak besar diatas kapal kayu, duduk disamping seorang ibu tua “TeTeo” yang ikut bersama rombongan kami di kegiatan imunisasi yang kami lakukan di desa pilot kami, Taileleu. Jaraknya sebenarnya 30 menit kalau cuaca bagus, tapi kalau cuaca buruk ( ombak bisa setinggi 5 meter) dan angin kencang, perjalanan bisa ditempuh selama 1 jam. Kemudian, aku juga sempat tinggal di desa itu bersama rekan kerja untuk melakukan riset perilaku terhadap masyarakat disana.Aku mengayuh sepeda milik pak lurah ke desa yang jaraknya sekitar 2 km tapi dibawah terik matahari dan pernah kami diserang yang namanya”heat-wave”..very dangerous. Ada masa suka dan duka,dan tentu saja…lebih menarik untukku dibanding bekerja di ruangan berAC berpakaian necis dan berseragam, datang dan pulang tepat waktu pakai Time-Lock. I think this is me and this is my passion. To be out there and to embrace the trueness of life.Makes you apreciate life more too. Thanks SurfAid. You move on with the good cause and you have made me a better person every moment.

Published in: on July 31, 2006 at 4:59 am  Leave a Comment  

Spiritual thought of the day


The source of all good, evil, weal and harm lies with actions, speech and thoughts. Did you bring your actions, speech and thoughts with you today? Or have you left them at home? This is where you must look, right here. You don’t have to look very far away. Look at your actions, speech and thoughts.

-Ajahn Chah, “Living Dharma”

Published in: on July 29, 2006 at 5:18 am  Leave a Comment  


In my old blog, i mentioned about the little accident that gives me a big plestered feet, and the heaviness drives me insane, but i m not going to whinge about it here. In fact, say it out loud but it was one of happiest moments i ever have since the doctor took off the plester that has been hanging and surrounding my feet and half of my leg for 3 weeks. Feet thats free Ah, the burden has gone.Feel blessed and i still can’t believe the doctor said i can start learn how to walk again..hmm you mean no need to put that horrible pin ? no.Oh my dear leg, how i missed you, you must be lonely and dry, you so soft and cold, and limpy too. We will be friends again hehehe.I just need to learn the walk again and of course right now, my feet doesnt look like a normal feet, it’s rather bruised and swollen in some parts because blood didnt really flow in that area for 3 weeks or so, and they still stiff,sore and when i try to move it , they tickles me like a “ants bite” hehehehe…I can hear the song ” I will survive” and i soon will go for a light swim to teach my muscles, many messages and walk to the beach, watch the sun rise, of course cuddles of loved one 🙂
I am looking forward to watch a cultural show. Something to look forward to. And i am happy just to think of it 🙂

Yesterday, today and tomorrow will be the music of my life .

Published in: on July 28, 2006 at 10:13 am  Leave a Comment